親密與距離

你說，讀到黃碧雲的書，其中有這樣的一句話，大意如此：

寫作，因為需要距離。

我呆呆地想，可是，寫作明明需要坦誠面對自己，赤祼地將腦中或感性或理性的想法呈現人前，本來就是很親密的一件事。其實，也是很冒險的一件事。你得放開自己，將最私密的自己敞開在人前。

你解釋，就是因為內容如此親密，形式上就得保持距離。親密和距離是不可或割的。

我試着用我的世界來理解。就像我喜歡中華白海豚，也就會跟牠們保持距離，不打擾牠，藉此保護牠一樣。表面看來遙遠，卻又是很親密的。

這樣看來，人與人之間真是複雜，總是徘徊在親密與距離之間。可以的話，我寧可簡單一點。

對於這個話題，還可以再多想一想。

P.S.:

Life has been very busy these days. I thought about skipping a day of writing, on one hand because of the exhaustion, on the other hand, out of the fear of throwing myself out there. Writing is really about being honest to yourself. Ever since i started writing here these days, I have discovered feelings that I have not known I have. It's like opening the pandora box - letting your emotions surfaced. It feels great to know that you are not numbed, but at the same time the ability to feel scares me somewhat. Would I rather be numbed and not hurt by the world than be able to feel the happiness yet the sadness of living?